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Rabu, 26 Desember 2012 | 01.24 | 0Comment ♫ Jingle bells, jingle bells Jingle all the way Oh, what fun it is to ride In a one horse open sleigh ♫ hey merry christmas everyone ! God bless you always :) Verrrry looong time no see and miss you my blog. so i wanna share about my life , moving forward after the beginning. I know it's hard to begin but it also same in the end. So this is part one of six parts. I live with 19 others. Adaptation .... adaptation more. You know, it doesnt easy like you look. We have many characters and its too complicated to make it one. I try to survive there because i am a SURVIVOR. Many things in outside there that i really want to do, but i can't. Everyday i just meet same peoples. And the other big problem is HOMESICK. I always miss my mom. We. not just me. There, we cry together. Happy and laughing together. It's not easy but i try to make it easy. it isn't simple if you become me. But there, i have many experiences that people outside can't see, and become part of us, twentytwo. I try to be unselfish, unchildish anymore and share. Conflicts? they always come everyday, evertyime. How to solve it, is a great thing for our future. But now i feel freedom. I dont want to lose it, but i can't. I must be responsible of my choice. Adaptation again. Something i fed up of this. Argggh, i want to have ordinary live, God ! But i think twice, mommy want me there so i can get my best future. I don't know can i survive for three years ? I need motivation, not from others but inside of my self. Start now i start to change my life. I must be active and stand alone. But please how can i solve my big problems ? And FYI , now im really confuse, fed up, and i want to stay here. But i cant because i should MAKE YOU PROUD OF ME ! Me , NOW   BUT I SHOULD  |
